Frank W Spencer Day.

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I often wake up believing that I got out of bed the wrong way.  It doesn't take me much to get out of routine.  It's like having a cold or flu symptoms that you can't shake off.  I get things out of context, and start to get confused and muddled up. 

This is only half the story.  Having Asperger's is like sleepwalking in a very nasty continuous dream/nightmare.  Most of the time you can't wake up.  I can also blank out for a short length of time too.  This can be quite dangerous, if I don't have full control over myself. 

When I was a child I was very bad at keeping steady time.  I would often fall over items, even if they were right out of arms reach.  I would fall or bang into things in shops.  I remember one occasion where I'd knocked over a swivel record rack.  I was a proper Frank Spencer, and got bullied because of this.  One occasion, I took a clock to school.  This was because I was convinced, that the teacher had told me to do so.  People with Asperger's tend to do/say/hear things without being in mind.  This is called TOM...Theory Of Mind. 

At school, I'd hear things spoken by others.  And yet they hadn't said anything at all.  This confused me a lot.  Why did people say things, and then deny that they'd ever said anything at all?  It even happens now.  I get neurotypical twats claiming they know me, far better than I know myself.  These idiots haven't even hardly spent any time with me at all.  And yet, they seem to make it well known, that they know me so well.  Aspies also tend to do many things, without any thinking strategy.  I've never liked the company of others. 

Even when people in general haven't asked for my permision, to touch me.  They go and touch me in a non-consentual manner.  It's a bit like being on a Gothic dancefloor.  The rules are simple.  Do not touch, unless you are asked to.  This is what The Lady Of The Manners teaches.  There are some very good points to Gothic Charm School.  Manners maketh a man/woman better.  Frank Spencer learns too.  Even though he's a one man disaster-zone.